Mine is a story of healing. And of hope.
In November 2007 I was diagnosed with
triple-negative breast cancer. The triple-negative diagnosis simply means that
the cancer cells tested negative for estrogen receptors, progesterone receptors
and HER2. Approximately two out of every three breast cancers test positive for
hormone receptors. And about 20-30% test positive for HER2 receptors.
Triple-negative breast cancer is rare (about 10-20% of all breast cancers)
and it is aggressive.
The bad news about triple-negative breast
cancer are the many statistics that make it pretty scary. It is typically found
in women in their 30’s and 40’s. I was 43. Women don’t start having annual
mammograms until they are 40 so if you are in your 30’s it was probably found
when you could finally feel a lump. Given its aggressive nature you can go from
a clean mammogram one year to Stage III cancer the next. Statistically,
triple-negative breast cancer is most likely staged at three, which means
cancer is in your lymph nodes. And it means the tumor is more than 2 mm in
size. It also has a high rate of recurrence in the first three years after
treatment. Thankfully I did not know any of this until after my treatment and
my doctors declared “no evidence of disease.”
Given its triple-negative nature,
triple-negative breast cancer does not respond to hormonal therapy or Herceptin
(a therapy that targets HER2 receptors). Triple-negative breast cancer is
typically treated with chemotherapy and radiation; both of which I received.
But my story does not begin with my diagnosis and treatment plan. It began
months before.
My friend “P” is a very spiritual man. I would
not call him religious in the sense of following a strict doctrine of a
particular religion. Rather, he is a man of deep convictions and Christian
faith that embraces many life style choices of the Buddhist faith. His faith,
convictions and prayer life are holistic and consistent. He started praying for
me months before the October doctor’s appointment that would change my life.
The most difficult phone call I had to make
was the one to my mother. I received the official news on a Friday and did not
call her until the following Saturday. About eight days. It seemed like a
month. How do you say the words “I have breast cancer” to your mother? [My
husband had been with me the whole time so I never had to say those words to
him. The fact that he had been with me at that initial conversation with the
doctor is another miracle of God’s hand. But that's another story]. My mother
is also a very religious person. More than that, she belongs to a church
that has the gift of prayer. Well, my mother has the gift of prayer as well. I
tell people that if she is praying for you, God is listening!
So after breaking the news to Mom that Saturday
morning she went to church the next day and wrote a simple prayer request to
put in the prayer box: “For Heather who has been diagnosed with breast cancer.” The church does not care who you are, or even if you specify your need. They
pray. And God listens.
My husband’s home church, the one he grew up
in, also prayed. They still pray for me and my health. In the end I had dozens
of people praying for me; some I don’t even know. God heard voices from all
over New England asking that I be healed.
I surely should have received bad news because looking back I realize I had
symptoms that I did not identify with breast cancer. After all, it wasn’t in my
family history. Also, the symptoms subsided. But I think about those symptoms
and the statistics associated with a triple-negative diagnosis and I realize it
could have been worse. I was ultimately diagnosed with Stage I cancer.
About 18 months after my treatments were finished I asked P if he had known what was wrong or did he simply know something was not right. He told me that all he knew was that something was wrong so he prayed. Yes,
prayers before a tragedy that
protected me from the worst possible diagnosis. And prayers during treatment. It should have been worse. Even my doctors are amazed at how well I did. The truth is, it is difficult to write about being touched
by the hand of God; even though I have told my story to numerous individuals.
But here it is.
RESOURCES: www.breastcancer.org; www.tnbcfoundation.org; www.cancer.org
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